|| tired and awake?
I am out of money and certainly out of luck.
I got a 1000 dollar speeding ticket.
I have decided to sell my car
move to eugene or cottage grove
go to school, buy a bike.
smoke lots of pot and write compulsively.
hoefully everything will work out.
I hung out with mary love, it wasnt too bad.
Im glad we reconnected as friends, I also hung out with alex. he is one cool mother fucker.
jessie lee has been staying with me the last few days, just getting fucking drunk and eating mushrooms and calling my mom talking more polska than ever.... yeah, calling your mom on shrrooooms....not a good idea!!i dont even remember taking the shroooms, I remember being like " ooh lets take these on halloween" and then being like " hahahaha eat em jessie" and shoving them in her mouth. haha. later i found her in the tent wrapped up in the rain sheild thing all cute and adorable in this giant orange bubble. her face was adorable thats all i remmeber, she says that we made out. i dont remember at all. i also woke up wearing a new shirt and I had bikini bottoms on under my underwear, but i was still wearing the same long johns and pants. i guess we tried to get into the bathtub and it kind of annoyed some one so they told us to get out. why not take an imaginary bath?? it was all a huge blurr. I am just glad my mom wrote it off as a drunk dial...man was I fucked up. jessie lee said people didnt want her to come chill with me, but she did. and im glad she did, shes chill as fuck, and she thinks i chill as fuck. we get along great. we drunkenly decided that were actually best friends. haha. shes going to tell all the people talking crap about me to shut up cuz im chill as fuck. man. mary is one cool lady, jessie told me she thinks mary is grose, but i still have little crush on her. it was an unusual week. a slishy sloshy blend of whiskey shrooms and apples. we still havnt come up with enough money for muchos, its so dissapointing. tomorrow were going to finish the rest of the half gallon and spange to get enough money to go up to portland. i really want to sell my car, like fuckin tomorrow.I cant believe tomorrow is the day before halloween im fucking excited. i have no plans and no idea what fucking town I will be in or if i will have a car or not or what the fuck ever. if i sell my car thats a few thousand to live off of. things will be okay. Im officially a bandito, i have accidentally stolen another one of marys bandanas. AhHA! im excited to be marys friend, and to make new friends. and live in a new place, and live a different new life. lifes fucking crazy.
get proof that the spedometer broke.
go to court for stealing on the 4th in eugene.
find a place to live.
talk to my mom.
go to court for the traffic violations.
look for a bike, get my moms bike, or my bike, get bike lock.
work on my life plan or at least plan some thing out for the near future.
sell car, refund insurance, get money, get room share, get bike, go to school, pay off everything, buy some damn pot. maybe look up ride shares so i can get back down here.
concider moving in with my mom for a brief stint, getting stuck in newberg without a car is worse than cottage grove. I need to stop focusing on my mistakes and start making things better.